Who is Caleb Ewins
The name is Caleb Ewins, but I'm better known by my online usernames which tend to vary based on how long you've known me. I go by Tearer450, Riveni, and Step(Up)Dev, usually just called Riv nowadays. I'm not fussed about the pronouns I'm referred by, but They/He suffice enough if you'd feel more comfortable using them. I stick to a very close small group of friends some I've known for as long as a decade, they're good people, and they're part of the reason why I'm as content as I am today. I would describe myself as a "realistic optimist" that meaning, that my outlook on life acknowledges the real with as much precision as applicable but looks as its harsh fixtures and apply a bright side of life perspective to hardship. To struggle and suffer is human, but to overcome that is equally as human. To stress and dread allows for change and action, which I pride myself on with my work in spite of hardship.
To tell ya the truth, the person you're reading about has been quite the prolific shut-in. I can't say I turn down new experiences often, but comfort zones are more where I tend to find new experiences so to speak, I enjoy learning in simpler terms. The biggest thing you'll pick up on in my interests is my intense and thus far unshakable resolve and motivation to work on things that give my life purpose and meaning. I LOVE making art and developing games, digital and physical. Unforunately though at least subjectively, I tend to pick out challenges and larger project plans which require a lot of learning, effort, and most importantly time. This in part is not a problem for me, as I once heard of this thing called a "golden moment" where you have bursts of energy. Those bursts of energy for me I don't seek. I set goals and meet or overshoot them, burnout is merely a suggestion to work on another thing of the same project. Progress must be made, and nothing can be lost. I am my work, and without it I ought to be nothing.
